When You Stare At The Stars..

I just realize how beautiful the stars are. I dont know I just feel so idiot that I didnt realize it earlier. I dont know what had happened to me which makes me feel so numb, I didnt feel that blessed for everything I already had. I was so emotional, I blamed everyone and everything, I cried lots, then I feel like the biggest sinner on the planet. 

I dont know what brings me go upstair, go on the roof of my house, and simply stare at the stars. It's so beautiful and special, I swear. No, it's not like those stars you see on galaxy stars designs.. it has deeper meaning, it has something that makes you realize how beautiful our earth is, that makes you feel so blessed, something pure that makes you feel loved by Allah. It's just so pure and beautiful and amazing. 

Then suddenly, all I wanna do is lying on the ground and staring at the beautiful stars all night. I just wanna feel the joy of staring the stars. Because when I see the stars, I can see my childhood, I can re-feel the joy when I can laugh freely as I have no burden at all and I can do everything I want to do. I can see and imagine things I've never think or imagine before, the nature, the journey. Because when I see the stars, I feel Allah with me, I feel his arms around me, embraces and warms my heart. 

I was so enchanted, staring the stars is so uplifting.