Alis Volat Propriis

Alis volat propriis. A beautiful syllable came from Greek, meaning she flies with her own wings. A strong word, describe a strong, beautiful, smart, independent woman...or girl. 

The more I live every single day, the more I understand things..or so I thought. 

I know now that you don't have to do things same with other people, you can be different. You can do whatever you want with the way you want, or be whoever you want, everything depends on you. 

Because that person who you follow won't be as inspiring for you forever. That person won't be the same forever, he will just gradually change and sometimes, that changes make the differences you have with him more distinct. That shows you how you're actually different with anyone. That you have your own identity as human, you have your own perspective on seeing the world and facing problems, and so you have your own way to overcome those problems. That ways might not be the same with anyone else you know, simply because you are different with them. Because you are you.

You don't have to do thing with someone, you can do with without anyone, alone.

Blessings

"Count more on your blessings rather than your burdens"

Every single second we spent in our life, waking up every morning knowing that you still have a day to be lived even though the rest of your life has been nothing but hell, is such a blessing. 

Knowing that God still given this day ahead of you, knowing that you are surrounded by people you loved, knowing that you are still free to be whoever you want to be is the greatest thing ever. So cherish it! 

You never know when will God take them away. You never know when will God take people you love, your parents, your sisters or brothers, your boyfriend or girlfriend. You just never know. 

You never know either when will God take you away. Or the freedom you have.

You may not realized yet, that even though your life feels like hell, you still have freedom and that you still capable of being whoever you want if you strong enough to believe and live it. Because you are blessed.

If you read this right now, it means you still have internet connection to access this. Showing that your parents clearly not in a poor condition or that they're some sort of masochist who like to martyr you or worse, taking away your freedoms.

You may never imagine it but there are people out there who has no freedom upon several condition. Either people take way their freedom or situation make them lost their freedom. 

People in war arena, people in poverty, people in several other situation I can't imagined of. 

So, I know post is shitty, but I just want you to know that you  are given this life because you are strong enough to live it. And that you're young and you still have freedom to be whoever you want to be. just breath, believe and live it. You are capable of being everything you want to be if you set your heart to it. Believe me, you are blessed.

Some Infinities Are Bigger Than Other Infinities

"There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's 0.1 and 0.12 and 0.112 and infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more number than I'm likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn't trade it for the world. You gave me forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful." - Hazel Grace Lancaster, The Fault In Our Stars.

p.s: I cried so hard in this part. 

The Fault In Our Stars

Here is the thing, I'm a good person, but I'm a shitty writer (well I'm trying to quote Augustus Waters from the book 'The Fault In Our Stars'), not really. I'm probably not a good person and I am not a good writer either, yet again I'm trying to write in my blog. And I pity you who read my putrid posts, I'm sorry but I told you I'm not a good writer, didn't I?

Well I'm not here to write a post on how suck I am at writing things, I'm here to, I don't know, express my feeling? So yeah, after months of no new posts - perks of having huge tests - , I come back with a post that literally just about my bubling about a book I finished less than an hour ago called The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. (I HIGHLY RECOMMEND YOU TO READ THAT)

It's all begin yesterday when I had nothing to do except scrolling down though my timeline on Twitter, feeling bored to death, then I found a post; a quote specifically. It was from this book called The Fault in Our Stars. Then I read that and at first I didn't get it so I left it. Then I scrolled down again and found someone tweeted about the film version of it, and saying that the film will be the death of hers. Now I'm curious. So I looked for the e-book and started reading it.

Unsaid Love

"Una delle cose più difficili nella vita è avere parole nel vostro cuore che non si può pronunciare"

- James Earl Jones

--"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter"

There probably are so many things you wish to say, but you can't. Love, for example.

You think you have crush on somebody. You have no reason why you have those weird feeling toward  him, you just somehow have it. When he's around, your mood suddenly increased. When he's away, even in the happiest event of your life, deep down on your heart you feel empty. When he smiles, nothing's matter anymore, even your pain. But when he hurts, you feel all the pain he feels. Cliche, but it somehow just happen to you. 

Then you have these thought; what if? What if it's not just 's crush'? What if you just fall for him? What if it is love you are feeling now? What if..?

Then you are forced to face the reality; you can't say that. You can, but you won't. Because you hesitate, of yourself, of your feeling. Those hesitations lead you to the hardest thing; the unsaid love. The love that will stay in your heart forever if you don't utter it. 

 

#Recovery, Move On!

"Recovery is that feeling when you start to move on and make things better for yourself, because yesterday is gone and tomorrow is here." - Justin Bieber

p.s: If you wanna hear the song just click here! :)

Joie de Vivrie

Joie de Vivrie. The joy of my life.
I swear that's the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. 
It's so deep if you can find the meaning of it, or if you're falling in love.
No, I'm not falling in love.
I currently read some fanfictions, and they somehow just make feel like like this.
Like I'm falling in  love but I'm not.

But, Joie de Vivire. Isn't that just sounds so right?
Even though I just read the sentence.. I somehow can feel it.
Suddenly, everything seems so beautiful
The fresh air, the trees, the flowers, the water
Everything seems so alive

Joie de Vivrie
Have you ever imagine the joy that bought by someone?
Have you ever imagine the feeling of being with someone?
The happiness which seemed like it will stay forever?
When that one person finally fill the hole of  your life?

Joie de Vivrie. the joy of my life.
I want to find one, not now cause I'm too young to  even think about it
But if I can wish, I wish I could find the joy of my life.
So I could feel perfect and filled.
So I could wake up every morning with big stupid smile on my face
because I know that I'm loved.

And I hope you are my joie de vivrie, Mr. Right. 

Best quote ever.

"Follow your passion, money will follow you." 

-- @BackpackerInfo

Cinta itu..

"Cinta itu perasaan. Cinta itu harapan. Cinta itu bijaksana. Cinta itu sederhana dengan cara luar biasa. Cinta itu menyejukkan. Cinta itu cahaya.

Tapi kadang cinta menjadi malapetaka. Cinta itu bohong. Cinta itu munafik. Cinta itu lemah. Cinta hanya sebatas kata. Cinta itu naïf. Cinta itu busuk. 

Dan cinta, satu kata yang bisa membuatmu salah mengartikannya."

-- Serena Natasha

Big Enough?

"People said that If you don't feel fear of your dreams, it means that your dreams aren't big enough. Well, I'm soo afraid that I can't reach my dream, I got fear on it, so is that mean that my dreams are big enough?"

I need..

"I need him to trust me. I need him to  love me back. I may sound obsessed, but you would feel the same if you  loved someone so much, and they didn't love you back. It sucks." - Ashleigh

p.s. bukannya mau curcol atau apa, tapi pas baca fanfic nemu quote beginian dan ini kece sekali. Buat kalian yang ngerasain rasanya quote ini, try and try to gain his trust, but you also have to be honest on your feeling, dan lo juga harus tulus karena dengan ketulusan seberapa keraspun hatinya akan luluh *tsaaah

 

Rasanya..

"Rasanya aku ingin membenturkan kepalanya ke tembok agar ia sadar. Agar ia sadar kalau aku di sini, hidup, dan lahir untuk dirinya. Lahir untuk mencintainya! Tapi ia tak merasakan itu." --Herren

The best love..

"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach  for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our  minds. That’s what I hope to give you forever."   – The Notebook

inspired by Evita Nuh's last post. But this does true.

"everybody makes mistakes, but it doesn't mean that he's a trouble maker"

--  terinspirasi dari pembicaraan pak Bashori di LDK 2012, me.

"seperti halnya bahwa single itu karunia, menjadi secret admirer juga sebuah karunia"

-- sebuah quotes dari Mr Free, tanpa coretan, bangga menjadi single. Namun G-boy dan Dila, menghancurkan quote "bangga menjadi single" itu.